Tallulah Willis on her eating disorder: ‘I did not value my life or my body’

The Willis girls are attention-seekers, they were trouble-makers as teens (a many of us were) and they are definitely the beneficiaries of nepotism. However they also strive to become more self aware, they’re open about their personal struggles, and they have experienced some personal growth recently. After reading these headlines I assumed that Tallulah, 23, was the one who was arrested for using a fake ID a few years ago, and that she got sober after that. That was Scout though. (It’s not that they look so alike that I confuse them, it’s that I honestly don’t pay that much attention to them and tend to forget about them quickly.)

Rumer, the one who arguably gets the most press, recently revealed that she’s six months sober. That is a real achievement, especially at her age of 28. It takes some people many more years of misery to realize that they should not drink. *Raises hand* Now Tallulah has posted an Instagram discussing her eating disorder, her three years of sobriety and how she feels about the time in her life when she was most consumed by an eating disorder. This is not the first time Tallulah has opened up about her eating disorder. She’s also been open about the fact that online bullying hurt her deeply as a teen.

3 years ago I was a malnourished string bean with aches that echoed throughout my soul. However the internal cries to tend my most blistered and deep wounds repeatedly fell on deaf ears. I did not value myself, my life or my body and as such I was constantly punishing for not being enough. Self annihilation fueled with medicating left me a shell, and the world on mute. I was hoisted from my hole, (one so deep I was certain we were nearing the Earths magma core) on the backs of powerful human beings that I will forever be indebted too, and on that day my life was gifted back to me. I love the girl in this picture, I cry for her and I mourn her lost years. She is inside of me always and I must never let her slip too far. I don't push any agenda, I can only speak for my path and staying sober has been far and beyond the most important thing I've done in my wee 23 years. 🎉🎂🎈

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That line “I love the girl in this picture, I cry for her and I mourn her lost years” is powerful, it choked me up. Yes the writing is a little overwrought but it still got me. Tallulah’s mom, Demi Moore, struggled with addiction publicly for years. This is daughter of a celebrity in a family where 2/3 all of the sisters are sober and talking about it. (Update: Thanks to Doody for pointing out that Scout has been sober for a year too!) That makes a difference for people who may be too ashamed or afraid to get help for their addiction and self harm issues. This is also an essay about coming to terms with your identity and learning to love and accept yourself while making those painful attempts to change. We all have our own journeys and issues and this impressed me. I’m not saying that Tallulah and her sisters (whom I lump together, probably unfairly) won’t do more annoying, attention-seeking things, just that this vulnerability and admission does help. There is help if you’re struggling and there’s no shame in it.

This pic is cute!

Xxtreme meat pic by grandma

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🏆🏆🏆 @realisationpar

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This is Tallulah’s dog and boyfriend. He has her name tattooed on his chest!

he cooked him in his belly

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  1. Kristen820 says:

    Congrats on your sobriety, CB!

  2. Pumpkin Pie says:

    “Internal cries … fell on deaf ears”. Where were Demi and Bruce? Because that’s how I take it.

    • INeedANap says:

      Yeah honestly I side-eye them both. How do all of your kids end up with various legal and substance abuse problems?

      • Ramona says:

        Demi and Bruce have equally had their own addiction issues. Between whatever genetic predispositions, parents who are themselves ill and access, its not that surprising. Add to that the attacks these kids had to field over their looks and I’m really not surprised that this is how they coped.

    • LadyT says:

      Internal cries…fell on deaf ears. I think lots of people may have had the attitude “What do YOU have to be anguished about?” Pain is pain. Privledge can be a blessing but also a nightmare.

  3. Cherise says:

    As soon as these girls popped up on Perez Hilton, I began to worry. He was so brutal with them specifically. He seemed angry that they didnt look like what he wanted them to look, just because their parents were once the worlds most beautiful power couple. I’m glad his career died and sad that he gets to raise a child.

    • Sonia says:

      yep, yep and hells yeah. And now that bastard has two innocent children.

      • Mumbles says:

        What a horrible person. He would have the gall to call out these girls – and others, IIRC he made fun of Adam Sandler’s little girl – when he is such a vile specimen himself. He sort of symbolizes the Mid-Aughts – mean, cruel, vapid, obsessed with money and power.

    • GiBee says:

      Can you imagine being that nasty to someone you didn’t know – knowing that they would almost certainly read it – just because you didn’t think they were as attractive as they should be? And they were basically children at the time. Disgusting.

      I think they’re all quite striking, very interesting looking, with lovely strong jawlines and beautiful eyes. And kudos to all the girls for being sober. Not everyone realises at that age that you can decide to stop drinking.

      • Alix says:

        These girls were so cruelly treated by the public and the media for not being conventionally pretty. Two handsome parents, and all that. They make me think of Scarlett O’Hara, who’s described in the first page of GWTW as “…not beautiful, but men seldom realized it when caught by her charm as the Tarleton twins were. In her face were too sharply blended the delicate features of her mother, a Coast aristocrat of French descent, and the heavy ones of her florid Irish father. But it was an arresting face, pointed of chin, square of jaw.”

        I think they’ve “grown into” their features and are really quite striking.

  4. anna says:

    good for her! the boyfriend and the dog – girl has a type.

  5. astrid says:

    Have the girls gone to college or done anything useful with their lives?

  6. Mia4s says:

    I wish her well, I wish both of them well.

    I had an interesting conversation with someone the other day about the obsession with stars “getting out of LA” or wanting to raise their kids “away from LA”. These girls are just another example of the fact that this is more a metaphor than a geographic issue. These kids were raised in Idaho and….well….Johnny Depp spent all those years in France and…well….Philip Seymour Hoffman wrote into his Will that he wanted his kid away from LA and would never live there and…yeah.

    By “LA” what people should really be talking about is fame and all the indulgences. You can be raised in the middle of Hollywood and turn out perfectly fine if you’re healthy and have good influences. LA is ground zero of fame so I have no doubt it can be harder but the reality is for stars it won’t matter where they are if they consumed by celebrity, the indulgences they get from it, and in particular if you add addiction or psychological troubles to that.

    • Tiffany says:

      Demi took those girls to, I think Idaho, after her divorce from Willis and things were going good for all of them. Then she hooked up with Kutchner and it all went to crap for all of them. They had a Mother who was trying to keep up with youth and a Father who went out and married it and had more children. I always knew that ‘We Are Family’ stuff was too good to be true. Even if they were the strongest people ever, they would not have stood a chance.

    • CynicalAnn says:

      They only lived in Idaho when they were really little. They were back in LA for their adolescent years.

      • someLady says:

        Plus one of her kids was literally in the movie “strip tease”. One can only imagine what those children were exposed to (pun intended). LA has everything, it’s up to the parents to screen and moderate. Demi and Bruce seemed typically celebrity obsessed. Hopefully they stay sober.

    • Livealot says:

      @MIA4S I think you need middle ground. LA maybe extreme and one end of the spectrum but so is a place like Idaho, or bumfuck nowhere USA where meth rates are high.

    • JG says:

      Great point. And I’ve known kids who have grown up in LA whose parents were doctors, lawyers, just not part of H-wood, and they turned out fine. Some of these celebs are going to mess up their kids no matter where the kids are raised.

    • WTW says:

      Yes, and living in L.A. doesn’t have to mean Malibu or Calabasas. There are luxury homes fit for celebrities away from those areas. L.A. is so big, there are plenty of places where Hollywood is a non-factor, so I find it strange when celebrities say this. I’m like, move to the Eastside!
      A New Yorker recently asked me how I dealt with living with the fake, Hollywood plastic culture in L.A.. When I answered that it really plays no part in my life, he wasn’t sure what to say. I live on the outskirts of the city with lots of nature, and I have to go out of my way to experience the toxic celeb culture. L.A. overall is a city of working class, brown people, and not at all what it’s portrayed as, so I find it very annoying when celebs overgeneralize about the city.

  7. ELX says:

    Like a lot of kids in their milieu, they had access to money, clubs and drugs from a young age–Idaho isn’t the moon. Children don’t have great judgment and do have a powerful desire to be popular. Also, these girls, specifically, all look like their father, not their famously beautiful mother, and have been treated horrendously because of that ‘failure.’

    • Birdix says:

      Yes, sadly their lives would have been much easier if they’d been born male.

    • Alix says:

      I disagree when it comes to Rumer — she’s a clone of her mother!

      • Sophia's Side eye says:

        Rumer looks nothing like Demi naturally. Rumer’s had work done, she used to look just like her sisters.

    • brincalhona says:

      Celeb children are unfairly compared to their parents’ post-surgery looks. If you change your nose, lips or whatever because you find it ugly but your child inherits it, how does that make your child feel?

  8. Doody says:

    Scout has also been sober for a year, so it is 3 out of 3. I think it is great that they are openly talking about this!

  9. Lucy says:

    I know they are members of the Nepotism Club, but honestly, I like them. All the best for the three of them.

    • Nina says:

      Yeah, I’ve always had a soft spot for them, too. There are certainly far worse members of the Nepotism Club. And at least they seem to be gaining some self-awareness and humility at young ages. I’m 30, and I still struggle with my ED, even though I know exactly why I have it. Maybe they’ll surprise us and put their knowledge to good use by doing things to help others with addictions and EDs.

  10. Esmom says:

    I teared up at her words, too. All the girls are incredibly fortunate to have each other for support and that nothing truly tragic had to happen for them to make changes for their health and well-being. Wishing them continued health and happiness.